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Monday, April 30, 2007
The Third Exam (Calculus II), Evening with Steven Curtis Chapman
I just came back to my hall from SBS to meet Alfred and finally talked to my first year ISCF friends in the bench near water-cooler. We talked about some unimportant things like why ISCF people tend to have the special relationship each other. I mean why many people get their special girlfriend or boyfriend there. Then, we continued the talking about the plan to go to Bugis to buy a kind of cake together. I enjoyed the time just now. At least I could forget my exam just now.The exam was unfortunately difficult for me. I admit that I regret with myself because actually I could do the questions if I studied well. From six questions, I could only answer not until 50% correct I think. I answered all but I wasn't sure whether it was correct or not. It is my second semester but why I still can't adapt with the situation in NTU. I don't remember again what I had done in thirteen weeks of semester 2. Hopefully, I can be better the nest semester (This is the last statement when we give up already, even though finally I will keep saying that always but I repeat my faults. But I don't want to be like donkey.)

After I came back from exam hall, I really miss to hear Steven Curtis Chapman song entitled "We Will Dance". A love song which really made me fell in love to it. For you information, Steven Curtis Chapman (born November 21, 1962 in Paducah, Kentucky, USA) is a contemporary Christian musician who has won five Grammy awards and more Gospel Music Association awards than any other artist in history.



Here is one of the verses I like:

We will dance

When the sun is shining

In the pouring rain

We'll spin and we'll sway

And we will dance

When the gentle breeze

Becomes a hurricane

The music will play

And I'll take your hand

And hold you close to me

And we will dance

You can listen to the song for free in Pras’ Blog

From the lyrics, I know this really represents how the relationship between Steven and God. Let’s see how close if we always keep on touching to God by praying and by giving our time with him, especially by saying good morning to Him every time we wake up. Let you know that this song heals me a bit. I realize how the relation with God is important to keep our relation with Him. I really like this part.

When the gentle breeze

Becomes a hurricane

When the gentle breeze becomes a hurricane shows how the one’s feeling after facing the hard exam. Hahaha…LOL. Thanks God for today. My next exam is Fields and Oscillations. This will be the hardest exam, I think. I should prepare well. I may not be so careless later.

Source :

Steven's photo from www.jesusfreakhideout.com

Wikipedia

Lyrics from http://www.sing365.com/

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Thursday, April 26, 2007
The Second Exam (Linear Algebra and Multivariable Calculus)

People who had just finished their exam in Hall D,E, F
After I finished my exam, I went back to my hall then I sent a silly e-mail as a respond of my sadness because the problems were difficult. I know this is wrong, I am sorry my lecturer.

From: #SEPTIAN BUDI WALUYAN#Sent: Thu 4/26/2007 4:54 PM
To: Chen Xin (Asst Prof)Subject: Exam
Dear Prof Chen Xin

I think that the exam questions were more difficult than last year questions.

Thanks

I see. Thanks.

Xin
Hopefully, this sadness won't last too long. I hope He will strengthen me again to have the upcoming exams in monday and wednesday. Even though I failed this subject, I think I will take it wholeheartedly because I was so careless this semester by neglecting this subject.

This day, I went to prayer meeting ISCF and joined cell-group meeting for the first time.

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Monday, April 23, 2007
Night Chat
My bad habit is that I set my MSN messenger into appear offline so evryone can't see that I am online. Then, I set it online if the day changes into the dawn, about 3 am. Sometimes, if there is nothing to do. I opened my MIRC then trying to chat with anyone that I don't know at all from other countries. And sometimes, I told to the one I talk to open this blog, LOL !!! Do I advertize too much (Jablai) ?

One day, I met a man named Marco from Italy. I learned many things with him. He said I am very young and it isn't good for me to chat too much. He said the things like this (I just summarize),"What you need is a ball not communicating to others. This world is better if there is no computer like now. Then, the emoticon in MSN like saying "hello" and there is a lauzy icon isn't really important. But, I prefer using this MIRC to chat because it is very nice to use the old fashion thing like this."

Can I be away from keyboard for a long time. This afternoon, I talk to my friend about the usage of computer for the students. I insisted that computer for the non computing major is not very important in NTU. Okay, I know it is too biased adjudication but for me, computer is just for chatting, blogging, and making report. How important is a computer for you ?

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Friday, April 20, 2007
The First Exam
I come back again. Today is my first exam in semester 2. The first paper was Optics and Waves, then I should sit for Java and Internet module one and a half hour. That picture was taken in Hall C , S4, south spine. I am so tired now after the tension I felt during the exams just now.
Well, the optics and waves paper was easier than last year paper. Fortunately, it was manageable and hopefully I can get B in my transcript. It is so hard for me to get A in the subjects that I take. I admit I am a lazy student. Perhaps, I still don't like the university study system. Hopefully, I can get a better result next semester with the new hope and effort. Then, for the programming paper, I think I made many mistakes. Fortunately, I did S/U for it. S/U here means that everygrade that I take for a particular subject won't be calculated in GPA. So, it won't bother me too much.
Thanks God for you assistance today.

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Saturday, April 14, 2007
The Last Day in My First Year
I like the sunset some days ago. Today is the last day, I mean for this effective weeks in semester two. I was rather upset when I was late for Linear Algebra class this morning. Then, I just went away directly to go to Bugis. Finally, I have bought my returning home ticket for 21st June next by Silk Air. It rained heavily in the afternoon but my trip to Bugis wasn't diturbed by that rain fortunately.

Many things happen in this one year. Cry, laugh, friendship, neighbouring, roomate, experiment, grade, changing course consideration, choir, concert, God, ISCF, KTB, Bukit Batok Church, had happened in my first year in NTU. I don't believe this is so fast. Now I know how this pace of life really affects me in thinking and how I should behave and should do daily. I am really grateful because I am not alone here. I still remember how last year when I was so excited because I was accepted in NTU and about how I was so afraid when my plane landed smoothly in Changi airport in July 27 last year. I am so grateful that God is still and will always be with me till now. I am sure that NTU is the right place that God gives to me even though some weeks ago I was thinking that I regret to study here. Now, I have a commitment that I will walk wholeheartedly and I want to enjoy my undergraduate study in NTU. Thanks for Jesus, my parents, my bestfriends in Indonesia and in this vibrant NTU. I know I can't stand without you right now without all of you.

I know, next week will be my exam. I wanna be hiatus for one or two months later for the preparation. Hopefully, I can update if I have more time. Help me in your pray so I can do my exam papers well. Thanks.

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Friday, April 13, 2007
An Afternoon with My Head Division Professor
Our Dean professor, Alfred who is the Dean of Physics Division, is a spiritful and inspiring figure for us. I myself don't know why there is magic in everytime what he says. Now I know why our physics seniors always say how helpful the lecturers and staff and now I really prove it by myself that even a Dean of Physics has the willing to teach me privately. In this pre-exam period, I have been asked to go to his office to ask the difficult questions.
Fortunately, he understood how my weak ability to solve physics problems so he patiently explain the way on how to solve the problems in my tutorials and from textbook. I will meet him again on monday at 5 o'clock. He is such a great professor and what I can learn from him is how we should do care to others even though we should sacrifice our time. I know he is so busy but he gives his time to teach me. Thanks Prof. Huan.

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Thursday, April 12, 2007
Memory, Don't Let It Go


Hopefully the spirit of Easter will always last in my heart. Doing what God wants because our love to Him.


That was the easter egg that I made through the night. It contained of some kinds of egg and the chocolate in the form of egg. It made me slept late but I was so glad that when I finished it.


The bus brought us to the morning service, 6 am in the morning, fortunately I could wake up.

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Saturday, April 07, 2007
Good Friday
Why should You die for us ?
tidak dapat kuselami pikiranMu Tuhan .

I went to church this morning, fortunately the bus wasn't so crowded. It was the first time for me to have a Good Friday service in Singapore. After that, Melinda, Marvin, and I went to Ko Zonny and Ci Alice house to celebrate Marvin's birthday. Well, the cocktail was nice.


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Friday, April 06, 2007
Maundy Thursday
Via Dolorosa (Latin for "Way of Grief") is a street in the Old City of Jerusalem. Traditionally, it is held to be the path that Jesus walked on the way to his crucifixion. It is marked by nine of the fourteen Stations of the Cross. The last five stations are inside the Church of the Holy Sepulchre.
Source : Wikipedia

Down the Via Dolorosa in Jerusalem that day
The soldiers tried to clear the narrow street
But the crowd pressed in to see
The Man condemned to die on Calvary
He was bleeding from a beating, there were stripes upon His back
And He wore a crown of thorns upon His head
And He bore with every step
The scorn of those who cried out for His death
Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King,
But He chose to walk that road out of
His love for you and me.
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.
Por la Via Dolorosa, triste dia en Jerusalem
Los saldados le abrian paso a Jesus
Mas la gente se acercaba
Para ver al que llevaba aquella cruz
Por la Via Dolorosa, que es la via del dolor
Como oveja vino Cristo, Rey, SenorY fue
El quien quiso ir por su amor por ti y por mi
Por la Via Dolorosa al Calvario y a morir
The blood that would cleanse the souls of all men
Made its way through the heart of Jerusalem.
Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King
But He chose to walk that road out of His love for you and me
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.


I was fasting this day and I went to church in the evening. The public transport was so crowded. Fortunately, I got the bus and I wasn't late. We used the Tenebrae Liturgy and the song Via Dolorosa was headr so often. The atmosphere of the church was healing the situation of my heart. I am not patient to go there again tomorrow.
Thanks Jesus for this day.

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Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Cancelation
Fyuh.... I finally cancel my trip to Vietnam and Medan.
Suddenly, my friend sent an SMS to me :

Erg now my family talking
about come here visiting me....
so may be i cant go with ya, sorry ah

So sad now.
Today is shining brightly but why my mind is so cloudy.

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About Me: When everything changes, I wanna still stay there calmly, and wait for the right time. I am surrounded by so called "radical" dreams. I don't know whether it is a form of idealism of a youth. But, be a doctor was my dream, but Physics came into me. ITB was my dream, but He gave NTU for me. Currently, I wanna be a high school teacher, researcher, journalist, writer, businessman, also want to study abroad again. It is unclear but it is fair. As far as I can, because I can jump higher as a true worshiper, as a true believer. Let me be a clay oh God, form me as You want.
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